1. What got you thinking about writing lyrics like "Inside this hollow glass / Lies a broken mess"?
Alcohol poisoned me, it truly turned my life upside down. I drank to feel a part of something that wasn’t meant for me. I lost who I was for someone else, and it broke me. I felt trapped, I felt like no one loved me for who I truly was. It only created chaos in my mind, it destroyed me.
2. Your songs talk a lot about feeling stuck or overwhelmed ("I can't stop," "My head's underwater, I'm drowning"). Can you tell us what was going on when you wrote these lines?
I let my guard down so low to the point where I hated myself. Before I got sober, my mental health had hit rock bottom again. It felt like a never ending battle between myself and the things that I put myself through for someone who never truly loved me. I felt like I was drowning out trying to be someone I wasn’t.
3. You talk about feeling betrayed in your lyrics, like "You buried me deeper and deeper again." Can you share what that line's about and why it's important to the song?
I was vulnerable, I was hurting myself emotionally every time I was giving someone another chance. Regardless of how I felt, I still kept giving and giving, to the point where I had nothing left to give to myself. I laid in my grave the minute I stayed, after I was hurt by the person who I thought at the time was my soul tie. I was blinded because I didn’t love myself.
4. The part where you sing "You're bittersweet, it's killing me" is pretty heavy. What made you mix sweetness with pain in your lyrics?
Life can be hell. I was angry and I was sad during this time. I knew that chapter in my life was over and the only way I knew how to heal from it was by letting go.
5. Your song has lines about feeling haunted and saying "It hurts like hell." What were you thinking about when you wrote those words?
I sacrificed so much of my life and time, constantly under pressure of abandonment and trust issues. I was always on edge, and hurt. One minute I was at my all time high, the next I was at rock bottom. Love is a powerful word but it means nothing if the actions don’t speak louder. I put myself through hell trying to save something that wasn’t within God’s plan for me.
6. You say "Maybe it's all my fault" in your song, which seems like you're thinking hard about something. Can you talk about what that line means to you?
When I got sober, it changed everything. That was the first time in 22 years I ever fully loved myself. Maybe if I would’ve remained broken, it would’ve worked out but I wanted Luke to love Luke. I needed to find peace within my heart for the sake of my own sanity. Through trial and error, at one point I believed getting sober was the reason everything fell apart.
7. Your lyrics talk about bleeding and not being able to let go ("Oh I bleed / Is it too late?"). What was going through your mind when you wrote that part?
I waited for someone who didn’t want to change, I was growing closer to myself for the first time in my life and it felt like I was waving goodbye to someone I never knew. It cut my skin deep and it hurt. I wondered if it was too late because I was so tired of feeling betrayed but I never knew how it would end. I had hope in something that was already over.
8. You sing "I'll never be the same" in your song, which sounds like a big realization. What made you feel that way, and how does it fit into your life?
I couldn’t be the person that was needed. I left my morals behind, I left myself and I left the things I believed in because of how much I had been through. Loving myself made me realize what I deserved and what I didn’t. Sobriety made me realize I had buried the old me, and because of that… I knew I’d never allow someone else’s ignorance to tear me apart.
9. Your songs are super emotional and honest. How do you balance telling your own story with connecting to your fans through your music?
Truthfully, this is how I cope. This is my therapy and I write to let go of the things that I can’t control. I write my tears down. Everyone has a story, regardless of how big or small.. I believe if I can be honest with the things I’ve been through it could truly alter someone’s heart in a healing way. Music is more than lyrics, it’s about feeling the energy it produces. Music is healing and it saved my life. The world we live in is already dead, this world is so dark. If I can leave an impact on one person through my music, then that’s all I pray for.
10. Lastly, how does this song fit into your new album or what you've been working on lately? What can fans expect from your music in the future?
This song gave a small hint at what is coming for my music. Melodic vocals but the release of every negative energy in my life. Bittersweet is the first song I have ever screamed on. I have fallen in love with the art of creativity and turning pain into a beautiful story. This next chapter of my life is about releasing everything and allowing God to heal me. I wanted to go a heavier route to show my versatility. That music is more than just sound, it truly is my life. Art comes in many forms, I just so happen to love screaming.
Produced by: Nathan Darmody
Mixed by: Peter Duff
Mastered By:Joseph Freeman
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